time to think

these couple of days have been absolute peace compared to the turbulent past couple of weeks, the frenzied shuttling from places to places, the incessant but never finished to-do lists, the endless shopping trips, and the annoying but necessary placement testings that needed to be done before school starts.

so i have had the luxury of really sitting down and doing nothing. and just think, about anything and everything there is. i wasn't thinking about anything in particular, but rather about the greater scheme of things.

where do we come from? why are we here?

i've been looking at this picture a lot since i came across it 2 days ago:


it is a photo (click for high res.) taken by the aging hubble telescope as it completed its recent 100,000th orbit. and somehow looking at it gave me a strange sense of serenity.

it's just that staring into the abyss makes me feel infinitely small, and i think i take comfort in knowing that no matter what i did in this life, no matter how it turns out in the end, it would be infinitely minuscule compared to the great beyond.

that doesn't mean that i would give up trying to do good things and being a good person, it just gives me that confidence to venture into whatever unfamiliar territories ahead. i would say dare to fail is the point of the whole realization/espisode or whatever you call it.

the peace before the storm somehow always seem the sweetest.


+listening to: neon by john mayer