another brick in the wall

i think this is it. the first rock bottom since the beginning of this eventful journey.

i feel defeated, depleted, shocked, angry. and it's all my fault. somehow i saw this coming, yet chose to ignore the signs, thus i bear the consequences.

what's my peers going to think? i don't know. i'm too tired to care. is there still chance to make up for it? i don't know. maybe i should just let it go. i don't know.

may be it's an indicator, that i'm not working enough, and the only way to find out, is to give it a go because when you're at the very bottom, there's only one way left to go.


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