talking

sometimes all we need to do is talk.

just came off the end of a long chat with a good friend, whom i shall not name. let's call him Z. now Z is unsure of himself and what life holds for him. he's tired and drained from not being able to achieve certain things he set out for himself. and from what i gather, Z isn't really happy about the state of things on the larger scale either. he feels trapped in a rat race. like... another brick in the wall.

i had felt the same way before, and i understood what he meant. it's hard to get a grip of what life has in store for us. and me? i don't know... i've always gone about my ways, i envied some, loathed others. all i know is that my life is what i make of it.

the more i talked, and the more i thought, and the more i talked, i started to realize, that what really kept me going boils down to one thing: the belief that i'm going to do something amazing. i don't know when it will happen because it hasn't happend yet, or what i'm going to be doing. but i just believe.

it's always easier to be sad, and be pessimistic about things. it's our natural reaction to the fear of the unknown. maybe it is also because it takes a certain amount of courage to trust and believe, that things will turn out for the better in the face of impending doom.

and it helps sometimes to take things in from another perspective, to see things in a different light; we all have our own inclinations and biases. sometimes "i don't know..." is perfectly acceptable. after all, we don't and can't possibly know the answers to everything. we have to find those out for ourselves.

so hey Z, brother, if you're reading this, here's something you didn't know about yourself: you are AMAZING.

as a matter of fact, this applies to everyone of us. we're all here for a reason. there's no doubt. just trust me on this.

+listening to: guranteed by eddie vedder