goodbye

i hate goodbyes.

it comes with an abundance of guilt, remorse, resentment, sorrow. it is also painfully short on hope. but looking back at the past 3 months. i think i've grown. physically, emotionally and spiritually. it has been a summer of reflections and remembrance. it is also a summer of self discovery.

it might not have been obvious save the physical appearance. the changes have been minute, yet in dealing with matters concerning the mind, those tiny little changes might have meant the world: a paradigm shift in perspectives.

i didn't get to travel the world. instead i saw my country through the most basic levels of human interaction. sometimes i cringe at the ugliness that exists. other times it makes me glad that i was born to be a part of this.

summer ushered genuine kindness from people i have known. friends. i'm glad that such a noble thing exists. they share your joy and sadness without any hopes of returns.

i'm grateful for everything that happened this summer. to everyone i have talked to. yet it's time again to say goodbye and leave this world to go to there other one. i don't know when will be the next time that i'll get to see some of you. i hope it will be soon. if not, see you in another life.

with love, yours truly.


+listening to: present tense by pearl jam