don't

i don't get upset all the time. but sometimes when i get made fun of, it triggers these flashes, of unpleasant memories that i had burried at the back of my head that i'd rather forget forever.

but i can't. it's scar tissue. i can't forget. so don't...

i don't understand why it is funny to make fun of people's nationality.

'chinaman' was term often used against the chinese and other asians as they encountered increased discrimination and injustice in the late 19th and early 20th centuries.

i am a chinaman. i am proud of it. so i really don't understand how is that supposed to be an insult?

and you wanna know why i don't like speaking chinese? i'll tell you why. i speak perfect chinese. i speak better chinese than most people who dare to call themselves "chinese". when i first got to singapore i spoke not a word of english. if people wanted to make fun of me they'd speak in english because i wouldn't understand a word they said. so i made sure i learnt it well, i learnt every single damn thing so i'd understand whatever they said.

so no, you're not worthy for me to speak in chinese to. that's why i don't speak chinese.


+listening to: grace is gone by dave matthews band