the dream/the not

i had a dream last night. i don't know what triggered it. it was the vivid pictures of dad bringing home a hedgehog from the market. i was maybe 4 years old.

he said that they were going to kill and eat it if he hadn't bought it and brought it home. i remember a sick feeling in my stomach. it was wounded too, limping on one leg, struggling, running. and there was my very first pet. i've always told people i've never had any pets. i just forgot about the little hedgehog.

... i don't think it's a dream though. because i remember now.


+listening to: edge of desire by john mayer