i've learnt

not to get too emotionally attached to people, objects, events. because whatever it is, it can only be ephemeral. they come and go, but i'll always be here. so if i appear distant and unfathomable, i apologize. it's not intentional, it's just me habitually ridding myself of feelings.

feeling nothing is always infinitely better than feeling depressed.

confiding in your buddies is always a challenge. it is the self doubt that is most agonizing - not knowing if they'd be ok with what you say, not knowing if they'd look/talk to you the same way after hearing you out.

it's always the not knowing isn't it? well i know now. that there's at least still 2 people in this world that i can talk to with an absolute peace of mind, and just be who i am. i'm really really grateful.

it's like an angel from montgomery, a much needed reprieve from the predicament i'm in.

+listening to: riddle by dispatch