grey ghost

it takes a mere second to say hello, but it takes an eternity to say goodbye.

i try to take my mind off of things by reading, and i've been stuck on the same page for days now - introduction. as my mind wanders through those dark alleys, twilight creeps up on me. i look outside hoping to maybe catch a glimpse of the last rays of sunlight; that never happened.

i tried being calm, but i'm terrified of the silence so i keep the music playing. the darkness doesn't frighten me, but the silence - it's too intense. between the music and the book, neither seem to have any effect on the current state of mind. i need to face my fears.

how do you bid farewell to something you can only feel but cannot see. how do you get rid of an uneasiness that you do not understand. how do you fix a worn out part that seem to work just fine to the naked eye. how do you mend a broken heart that is not yet broken.




+listening to: grey ghost by mike doughty