i took the last bus home from boon lay interchange and ended up oversleeping. just spent 45 minutes walking home and finally got back at 1.15am. why are things so screwed up.
when i got home there was a letter waiting for me. my failure to conform to required standards had resulted in serious consequences for next semester. it's all down to the TGPA (technical gpa) argh... i guess i really screwed up the ECE classes last semester. this is a failure of epic proportions and it's nobody's fault but mine. this holiday shall be devoted to turning my life around, because i refuse to give up.
hence begins a new journey and another challenge to overcome. suddenly my purposeless holiday had a jolt of life injected into it. there's something to work towards again. all i ask is that you look upon me with the same gaze as before, or maybe include me in your prayers no matter your faith, if you like.
i believe that the greatest failure is when you fall down and you stay down. and there's no way i'm staying down.
Tuesday, June 16
| mind in a mess |  |
Monday, June 15
Friday, June 12
| lost | |
i'm finally back on track with lost season 5. been watching it almost non stop. but that's a story for another day.
today was the last training session, for real. i guess rugby for me here in singapore has come to a halt. this is the end. everything has come full circle.
it's hard for me to put the kind of feeling into words now. it's hard to swallow the fact that this might be the last time that i'll ever set foot into hwa chong, onto the familiar pitch, where countless hours are spent perfecting that place kick, savoring every moment that i ever had to just have a run on the wide open space, or just day dreaming under the setting sun that one day we might just get a chance to play here.
i know this place... every inch of turf, every pot hole. the familiar scent, the change of winds. the temptation of the goal posts, the jubilation of a successful drop goal. breathlessness, unquenchable thirst. every drop of sweat and blood, that gratifying spring in your steps. it's a magical place, it's my theater of dreams.
i feel a little lost, but assured at the same time that some good will come out of it. it's been like this and it will always be like this. we've all shared the same experience: that leap of faith, writing your name on the sheet of paper with a horribly scribbled "hc rugby" for the first and last time. and then you were "in", putting your trust in people you've never even met before. but it had always turned out just fine because we've always had kind hearted people, crazy people, passionate people, who had carried one another and continued on a proud tradition of this game that we've all come to love.
i'm lost for words. so, for one last time: hwa chong, whoosh!
+listening to: try by john mayer trio
Thursday, June 11
| the cure for boredom is | |
island creamery... NOT
a couple of maniacs came up with the idea of going to island creamery for a spontaneous outing at roughly 9.20 pm. and 9.30 pm i was downstairs hitching a ride. and 9.45 we were all sitting down, chilling out and having scoops of lovely ice cream. the place closes at 10 btw.
it's kinda retarded, but fun too. all the hassle just for a couple scoops of ice cream. what an excuse to hang out. haha
all thanks to the enthusiasm of peiyi and yc, they inspired me to go. i wouldn't have gone otherwise. ha
+listening to: green thumb by tommy emmanuel
Monday, June 8
| carefree days | |
awesome text message from dad: "did you call me yesterday? because my phone shows you called but i didn't receive any calls from you."
erm... it's called a missed call for a reason -_-" it's just like the other time my dad sent me another awesome message right before a game: "good luck. i'll be proud of you if you win." does that mean if i lose the opposite is true?
i love my dad's unintentional sense of humor.
today would have been an awesome day if not for the building works going on BOTH upstairs and downstairs. we're in an economic recession for pete's sake, so stop wasting money on renovating and remodeling your houses! there are people out there starving!
i'm gonna need a pair of heavy duty ear muffs soon. i guess this is how an economic stimulus plan usually works: put a substantial sum of money in the hands of certain dumbass individuals so they can squander it away while the rest of us are forced to spend out of our own pockets to offset their stupidity.
+listening to: free fallin' by john mayer
| not yet over | |
what i thought was the last holiday session turned out to be not really the last. had another one today. and i think my face might have melted a little at around 11 am.
the weather was a killer. and i was sweating buckets just standing there and ordering people around and about their drills and such. man it's hot in here. overall was somewhat satisfied with the performance, even though there were on average 1 dropped ball/pass per minute during a certain recycling drill. ghastly.
but surprisingly their switches are pretty good. i think some of them might even be able to do it better than myself i kid you not. but then again it all comes down to awareness and execution in a real game. we'll find out i guess, they seem eager to play a game.
all is not lost, there might just be hope.
signing out.
+listening to: my generation by the who
Sunday, June 7
| urgh | |
the baa baas got smashed by the bloody aussies, it was all wrong from the start, the squad selection was horrendous. for one of the biggest tests ever, how could they have gotten the squad so wrong. pffttt...
went to sentosa again yesterday. i think i've been there more often since i came back than i have been there the whole of last year. go figure.
met up with some friends over lunch and we spontaneously decided to go see the christian lacroix exhibition at the national museum. it was an interesting experience, culturally. it felt very 18th century and operatic. i guess that's the way he wanted people to feel when looking at those costumes.
+listening to: nothing
Friday, June 5
| final holiday session, sonny bill, etc. | |
final holiday session. think i've covered all that i know of and have experienced as a rugby player. peace of mind. everything else is up to them. sadly they're still not being a team, more of acting like one at the moment. but it's good to know that there's still genuine passion for the game, maybe some of them will make it. i don't know.
right. SONNY BILL WILLIAMS.
the stats speak for themselves:
- 1.95 m
- 107 kg
- 14 tries, 56 pts in 2007 NRL season.
the superhuman, the lebron james of rugby league, now plying his trade in rugby union. it's probably one of the best things to ever happen to rugby union since tana umaga converted from league. a lot of tuqiri (lote tuqiri) doesn't count, cause erm... he's from the criminal element (australia).
and come tomorrow, sonny bill will be playing 13 for the baa baas against an australian squad that would be eager to please in the opening match of their international season. and guess who's the opposite number to sonny bill? it's non other than the evil wizard stirling mortlock. now just watch as sonny bill opens a can of whoop-ass on stirlo's ass. IT WILL BE EPIC.
WALLABIES: 15 Adam Ashley-Cooper, 14 Lachie Turner, 13 Stirling Mortlock (c), 12 Berrick Barnes, 11 Drew Mitchell, 10 Matt Giteau, 9 Luke Burgess, 8 Richard Brown, 7 George Smith, 6 Matt Hodgson, 5 Nathan Sharpe, 4 James Horwill, 3 Al Baxter, 2 Stephen Moore, 1 Benn Robinson. Reserves: 16 Tatafu Polota-Nau 17 Ben Alexander, 18 Dean Mumm, 19 David Pocock, 20 Josh Valentine, 21 Quade Cooper, 22 James O'Connor.
BARBARIANS: 15 Geordan Murphy (Ireland), 14 Iain Balshaw (England), 13 Sonny Bill Williams (uncapped, NZ), 12 Seilala Mapusua (Samoa), 11 Josh Lewsey (England), 10 Luke McAlister (NZ), 9 Chris Whitaker (Australia); 8 Rocky Elsom (Australia), 7 Phil Waugh (captain, Aus), 6 Jerry Collins (NZ), 5 Paul Tito (uncapped, NZ), 4 Chris Jack (NZ), 3 BJ Botha (South Africa), 2 Sebastien Bruno (France), 1 Clarke Dermody (NZ). Reserves: 16 Schalk Brits (SA), 17 Greg Somerville (NZ), 18 Martin Corry (England), 19 Serge Betsen (France), 20 Justin Marshall (NZ), 21 Glen Jackson (uncapped, NZ), 22 Ben Blair (NZ).
+listening to: we are the champions by queen
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