just

looks like dinner is going to be soup again. this week needs to pass me by quickly, so does the next, and the next...

sometimes i wished that i knew what i needed to do to get rewarded with some good karma. trying to treat everyone with the best of intentions, and all the things i thought i've done right, i don't know.

i desperately need a summer job now that the end of the semester is approaching. and i can't seem to find one. i've looked everywhere. any job will do. i just need to save up a little bit of money to fulfill a dream come next summer. the thought of the dream being so close, yet having to miss out on it depresses me.

i really want this. and i just need a little luck. please listen.

and RIP to the 29 miners who died in wv. hard working men and women deserve to be remembered too, not just shannon hoon and kurt kobain.

+listening to: the spirit carries on by dream theater

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the life we're in

i have just come to the sudden realization that this year marks the 4th decade i have been on this planet: the roaring 80's, the forgettable 90's, the geeky 00's and now the 10's.

spent a very relaxing hour this afternoon on the quad having a nice conversation about life in general. where we have been, where we are going. i really relish opportunities like this. to do nothing but sit down and talk. wish i had more time though, but the lab was beckoning. so i had to hastily say goodbye.

i'm just coming to terms with what is in front of me and what is not. i'm thankful for what is here and available. and i hope all the troubled souls find some peace no matter how insignificant and sleep soundly tonight. there's been too much tears shed and too many hearts broken.

+listening to: soulshine by gov't mule

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hello derek trucks, warren haynes, duane allman

today i played slide guitar for the first time, live, outside of my room to a room full of people. i am SO stoked! it's always been a dream of mine to play a little slide guitar, just as an homage to my heroes, the likes of derek trucks, warren haynes, duane allman and so many countless magicians who have wielded the power of the humble apparatus, the slide.

just the sweet sweet sound of the variation in pitch without having to take your hands off the fretboard. it's pure joy in a bottle (literally, because the slide i used is called a blues bottle which is actually a medicine bottle, but that's another story for another day).

=)

+listening to: crow jane by the derek trucks band

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democracy

democracy works on the principals of a well informed citizenry who can make educated judgments based on those information. but educated as we are, sometimes we make decisions based on perceptions. and sometimes those perceptions may be skewed.

i'm just very disappointed today by all the mean remarks people dished out without looking past the surface. if you just took the time to ask, and be gentle, most of the time you're going to get to know that someone better. and the reasons why they chose to do certain things a certain way. instead of the slews of "why are you wasting our time", just open your ears and listen. there's a lot more truths to be had if you had just listened.

this doesn't exactly concern me, but it kinda made me angry. whatever happened to mutual respect and humility. talk less and listen more.


+listening to: heartbreak warfare by john mayer

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#442

conversations are awesome awesome.


+listening to: angel from montgomery by the betweeners

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#441

sometimes it's nice knowing that people appreciate the fact that you always try to be as best a friend as you can be, for no reason other than that is who you are.


+listening to: all day and all of the night by the kinks

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tough week ahead

i love long rides and conversations. somehow the idea of being squished into a tin can and talking just seem befitting. maybe it's because i don't get a chance to have a conversation very often.

woke up feeling worse than i felt last night. the headache is still there. i suspect it could be a minor case of concussion, because the symptoms are similar to the last time i got one, just not as intense. but the prospect of everything happening next week makes me a little weary. and the inevitable train of what happens next ensues, and then...

but i'm constantly reminding myself to take it one day at a time. one day at a time


+listening to: pay for what you get by dave matthews band

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make me an angel...

just watched into the wild again. i dunno why, it was like this urge inside, that desire to feel something. anything. i've never felt more free than when i'm watching that film. it's one of the few things that still makes me feel like i'm alive.

an angel from montgomery... i am desperately in need of one. to free me from my own prison...


+listening to: nothing

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