escape

we all do what we do to get away from our demons. even though we're all unique individuals with our own separate ways, the end goal is the same.

some get wasted, some run, some eat and some sleep. i guess i go for soothing for that escape - usually just putting on my favorite songs, have a warm beverage in hand and dim the lights. sometimes i read about the lives of others so i can live vicariously through them and forget myself in it. it might not get me completely out of the slumber, but it does calm the nerves.

so my friend, yes you know who you are - try to keep your spirits high and your demons down. less than a week till you're back from that somewhere in between.

+listening to: temporary saint by gov't mule

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songs

songs are like tattoos aren't they? once they're stuck with you, it's pretty much for life. like joni and scotch. i can never get sick of those two - old acquaintances on a blistering cold winter night.

+listening to: a case of you by joni mitchell

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ride safe

+listening to: nothing

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grey ghost

it takes a mere second to say hello, but it takes an eternity to say goodbye.

i try to take my mind off of things by reading, and i've been stuck on the same page for days now - introduction. as my mind wanders through those dark alleys, twilight creeps up on me. i look outside hoping to maybe catch a glimpse of the last rays of sunlight; that never happened.

i tried being calm, but i'm terrified of the silence so i keep the music playing. the darkness doesn't frighten me, but the silence - it's too intense. between the music and the book, neither seem to have any effect on the current state of mind. i need to face my fears.

how do you bid farewell to something you can only feel but cannot see. how do you get rid of an uneasiness that you do not understand. how do you fix a worn out part that seem to work just fine to the naked eye. how do you mend a broken heart that is not yet broken.




+listening to: grey ghost by mike doughty

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if you are looking for me

i'm still here. always have been, always will be. all you have to do is say hello.

+listening to: a guy named joe by coyote grace

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the year in closing

goodbye 2010. you're definitely one of the stand out years in my journey in life but i'm not sure that i'd want to relive it again. whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, so thank you.

i guess the good thing that came out of all of it is that i'm more sure of myself than i've ever been. at the same time the future has never seemed more uncertain. but i guess that is okay too, because i've learnt that i'm one who lives in the present. one day at a time. so i try not to think about it.

hopefully 2011 will bring many joys.

+listening to: ugly mother by coyote grace

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don't be cruel

see people for who they are and not what you can get out of them. if you've got something to say, say something nice. everyone and everything is beautiful in their own special ways. remember because it is worth remembering, and not what might happen less you forget. take into consideration how others might feel as a consequence of your actions. don't be cruel, be gentle. don't be cruel.



+listening to: i need a dollar by aloe blacc

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jack be my friend

hotel room, with the tv on. it's just me and jack now. it's not hard to fathom why i like the guy so much: he's easy going, always there. i can count on him when i'm happy, and i can still count on him when i'm beat up. he doesn't judge and he never argues and he tucks me into bed at night with a fire in my belly.

i thought it was a bit insane bring jack along for the little trip, and now he's even been with me to the highest point in the whole god damned midwest.

to jack - tennessee's favorate son, and definitely one of my most trusted friends.

+listening to: nothing

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