life in a bubble

another time. another failure.
it's so hard to swallow, the feeling. i choke.

it really makes me wonder, have i made the right choice in life? efforts go to waste, it wouldn't have mattered if i had just slept through the past 3 days. the outcome would have been the same.

just wanna wake up from this never ending nightmare. it's taking its toll on me even though somehow if it had been someone else it would have been different.

why does everything seem so hard to me. what is my calling.


+listening to: atmosphere by john mayer