Totally random occurrences, called coincidences, happen all the time. today was one such occasion.
I have always seen the record in record stores just lying around there, gathering dust. no one seems to bother to even look at it. maybe it's because it looks spartan, unpretentious, austere and unobtrusive. it's just a cardboard sleeve with some less than interesting words in colour.
My god was i so wrong before about it. this has got to be the BEST record i have heard in a long long time. it jus gets u thinking about tonnes of things, stirs ur emotions, gives u goosebumps, makes u wanna puke after u're done thinking about everything. the song "another kind of green" and "wait until tomorrow" just are absolutely stunning and keeps playing in my head, i can't seem to get them out. and the tone is just BLISS, the chimey fender-ish clean that just gives u a serene sense of existence. and when mayer goes into a solo, it's just mind boggling - the sweetest overdriven mudhoney-butterscotch-caramel-suger-rush blackface breakup you've ever heard, and his playing is spot on. damn i'm gonna be listening to it over and over again for a while...
Sunday, January 27
| New Love |  |
Wednesday, January 23
| rugby | |
I believe in the blood on the pitch, the jammed fingers, the broken ankles. I believe in rubber balls, knee socks, and pouring sweat. That we really are Barbarians, and that's why we wear our own logos. I believe in mud in every crevice of the body, that we are 15 as 1, that the try zone is home. I believe in the split play, the crash, and bananas, I believe in nicknames, tears of joy, pain of defeat, striped collared shirts, one shining moment. I believe in tourney season, that pain is progress. I believe in our mantra, that socials are the only true way to lose or win with grace. I believe that glory is fleeting, that Zulu's are a blessing, and that the line will always have my back. And above all else, I believe in the love of the game. This is what I play. This is what I love. RUGBY IS LIFE.
Sunday, January 13
Monday, January 7
| The Wasteland | |
Still awake, I continue to move along, cultivating my own nonsense. Welcome to the wasteland, where you'll find ashes, nothing but ashes...
Feelings are what makes us beings, and not just inanimate objects. cognizant, feeling, beings. hurt, disappointment, rejection - negative feelings are what keeps us in check with the harshness of reality. Darwinian theory did not predict the evolution of feelings, only the physical progression of our beings. i think that's precisely what separates us from animals.
I have come to the conclusion that the feeling of emptiness is perhaps one of the most powerful feelings a being can experience. especially these few days, just to give you an idea, my mental-scape looks something like a wasteland, a landfill, with crows hovering above, trying to scavenge the last bits of whatever that remains.
I feel like an ass for not doing NS, seeing friends and classmates all soon to be enlisted. I feel like a coward, like a deserter. i feel as if i'm betraying those who are going. i keep telling myself it's okay, but everytime i try to tell myself it's okay, it only ends in a circular argument - that it's not okay and that i should feel ashamed of myself. it's like avoiding a draft during a war, you ought to feel emasculated, because you have no honour left.
The emptiest of all i guess is that this might be the last time i get to see some of my closest friends. whom i have come to admire and love, for who they are and what they have done in the cause of friendship and camaraderie. Life will never feel the same again i suppose, because i doubt i'll ever have friends who are closer than those that i have now. university, work places are all too complicated, filled with people with their own agenda and ambitions. there's no place for real, innocent and lifelong friendships to flourish, they would just be mere acquaintances.
Still awake, bringing change, bringing movement. Bringing life, a silent prayer thrown away. Disappearing in the air, rising, sinking, raining deep inside me. Nowhere to turn, I look for a way back home...
Wednesday, January 2
| New Year Countdown | |
went to countdown with alvin, alien, alge and remy ong haha went to ALOT of places (including the pan pacific elevator. we rode it up and down like 5 times and played hide n seek with the security guard in the hotel at 4 a.m. in the morning. bloody hell lol). basically, it's marina square for dinner => esplanade => fireworks => cathay for midnite movie => starbucks to slack => back to esplanade park for no reason => pan pacific elevator => middle of no where => city hall starbucks => burger king => home
Saturday, December 29
Friday, December 28
| After X'mas... What now | |
Been an uneventful christmas this year. me being home alone. but it is just as much boring as it is a blessing. i had total freedom to do just exactly what i wanted. so for christmas, i went... to my old NTU hood for some old skool reunion.
man it was a great gang bang, just like old times. it was as if i still lived there. breathed the same air. nothing's changed, not even the way the plants grow. yunan corner is still as dodgy, but nontheless hell of a night. it was amazing that we just kept on playing pool, xbox n what not till we couldn't take it anymore! haha coolio and wasted.
and then 2 days later, which is yesterday, i think... i went again. exactly the same thing! and the thing is we ordered macs, and akash being his usual self, for the 2nd time in a week, ordered a (pay attention!): DOUBLE CHEESE BURGER WITHOUT THE MEAT. i mean dude, if you're gonna order a DOUBLE cheeseburger without meat, why dun u just order a SINGLE cheeseburger without meat. you get EXACTLY THE SAME THING: a bun and cheese. hahaha i mean it was too funny and we all had a good time taking potshots at him. he doesn't seem offended. then yesterday, the order came with the meat and he got pissed off. so he called macs up again and threatened to sue them. guess what, they sent the same order back again! that's like 20+ bucks worth of free food dude. we should have ordered WAY more. that way we can milk every single cent out of it.
hmm sentosa tomorrow i guess, really looking forward to it! i really miss the class and the GOOD times we had together! yaaaaaooooozzzeeeeehhhh! and from now on i can post pics up as well. just got myself a new x'mas present: a shiny new motorazr2 V8. :D
