I may have wasted all those years
They're not worth their time in tears
I may have spent too long in darkness
In the warmth of my fear
Take a look at yourself
Not at anyone else
And tell me what you see
I know the air is cold
I know the streets are cruel
But I'll enjoy the ride today
I may have wasted all those years
They're not worth their time in tears
I may have spent too long in darkness
In the warmth of my fears
As I walk through all my myths
Rising and sinking like the waves
With my thoughts wrapped around me
Through a trial of tears
Hidden by disguise, stumbling in a world
Feeling uninspired, he gets into his car
Not within his eyes to see, open up, open up
Not much better than the man you hate
Still awake
I continue to move along
Cultivating my own nonsense
Welcome to the wasteland
Where you'll find ashes, nothing but ashes
Still awake
Bringing change, bringing movement, bringing life
A silent prayer thrown away,
Disappearing in the air
Rising, sinking, raining deep inside me
Nowhere to turn,
I look for a way back home
Friday, March 7
| still awake |  |
Thursday, March 6
| It's Now or Never | |
that i can't eat.
i wish i could lose consciousness,
just so my head would stop screaming at me.
t-minus 0 day: d-day.
Wednesday, March 5
| The American Man | |
The rest of the world often look to the United States of America in awe. after all, it is the land of the free, the home of the brave and the essence of the "American Dream"... or is it?
Oil price hikes are not uncommon. Flashback: in 1980 it went up record levels, adjusted to inflation it would probably be at around $102.53 a barrel. At present: on Jan 2nd it crept past the $100 mark, hovering at around $100 ever since. and it hit an all time record of $103.05 last friday.
For the largest carbon emitter in the world, this should have some if not major impact on their lives, since it would mean the prospect of $4-a-gallon gasoline. Thanks to the geniuses of the American motor industry, for owners of the average American family cars like the Dodge Durango SUV (voted one of The Worst American Cars 2006 by Forbes, and does 12 miles to the gallon which is the same as a Lamborghini Murcielago fyi), it would be hell expensive to drive at the moment. just imagine: a typical 25-mile school run would turn into a $16 affair daily, which translates to about $80 a week. Yikes!
And what is the president of the US of A doing about it? the following excerpt should shed some much needed light on the status quo:
Peter Maer of CBS News Radio asked: "What's your advice to the average American who is hurting now, facing the prospect of $4-a-gallon gasoline, a lot of people facing ... "
"Wait, what did you just say?" the president interrupted. "You're predicting $4-a-gallon gasoline?"
Maer responded: "A number of analysts are predicting $4-a-gallon gasoline."
Bush's rejoinder: "Oh, yeah? That's interesting. I hadn't heard that."
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Hadn't heard? I wonder whose tune Mr. Bush has been listening to. Wait a minute, does it mean THIS is what he has been like for the past 8 years?
Maybe it's about time that all Americans take a moment and re-evaluate their positions, perhaps seriously taking a cue from their infamous national anthem - The Star-Spangled Banner, once a symbol of hope and freedom.
The last stanza reads in particular "...And this be our motto: In God is our trust." Indeed, it sure does seem like God is the only bloke whom they should put their faith in at the moment.
Edit: seems like i'm a bit outdated. Oil prices have climbed to a staggering $104 a barrel on wednesday. ouch!
Tuesday, March 4
| The Televison Strikes Back | |
i'm bored. chronically bored. i've finished the entire 6 seasons of the sopranos 2 weeks ago, wishing there was more. everytime i feel angry i turn to the sopranos, because it calms me down, it makes me forget all my worries, it makes me feel like a gansta, it makes me feel badass. and there's no other new show that even slightly interests me at the moment, other than those which i've faithfully followed before they went into the hiatus. well there is family guy, but that's a whole different vibe. i meant like serious drama, heavy on characters type.
and this is all happening during a period in my life where honestly i have too much free time, and it doesn't help that the cinema is all dried up at this time of year before the summer blockbuster season opens. so like all other faithfuls and purists i turned to television for salvation, only to have shit shoved all over my face with the writers' strike and it's aftermath: at least 3 months of void or even more absurdly, the possibility of having nothing but revolting reality tv before normal schedule resumes (forget re-runs. they don't make money nor raise network ratings). i beg you to not turn to reality tv, you know better - it's like turning away a hot chick and opting for "self-appeasement" instead. 'nuff said.
since there's nothing i can do about it, i've taken the liberty of doing a little bit of research while simultaneously entertaining myself by discovering shows that i haven't seen before and the million back-seasons of god knows how many shows that i missed last year.
so here's the status quo of most of the more popular shows:
- Brothers & Sisters: Returns April 20 with four new episodes.
- Desperate Housewives: Returns April 13 with five new episodes and two-hour finale
- Grey’s Anatomy: Returns April 24 with five new episodes
- Lost: Returns April 24 with five new episodes
- Pushing Daisies: Will return in the fall
- CSI: Returns April 3 with six new episodes; is renewed for fall
- CSI: Miami: Returns March 24 with eight new episodes; is renewed for fall
- How I Met Your Mother: Returns March 17 with nine new episodes
- N.C.I.S.: Returns April 8 with seven new episodes; is renewed for fall
- NUMB3RS: Expected to shoot several new episodes soon
- The Unit: On hiatus
- 30 Rock: Returns April 10
- Heroes: Will likely not produce any further new episodes this season
- Law & Order: Returns April 23
- My Name Is Earl: Returns April 3
- Scrubs: Returns April 10
- The Office: Six or new episodes will begin airing on April 10
- 24: Will return in 2008-09 season
- House: Original episodes return on April 28
- Prison Break: Returns April 23
- The Simpsons: Full season of original episodes continues
so i guess there's really not much i can do other than be patient. it's gonna be a while.
Monday, March 3
| Oh shit, mommy and daddy are in town! | |
Disaster.
My mum and dad are in town to visit me. complete utter disaster. i don't need another 2 human beings breathing down my neck when i'm already catching all kinds of crap from myself because the results are coming out this friday. this is perfect. 3 days before the release of the results my parents drop in on me unannounced.
What the hell am i gonna tell them? that the results are out on friday? or... what the hell am i not gonna tell them? that the results are coming SOON?
And my mom will inevitably go on and on about the abrasions on my arms and legs and what the hell i'm doing with my life, etc. etc.
i'm completely shitholed. shitf*ck!
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Sunday, March 2
| The world as we know it... post armageddon? | |
While aimlessly hopping through stories of prince harry's adventures in afghanistan, now that it's literally splashed everywhere (i wouldn't say i'm a fanatic of the british royal family, but i have always been curious about the establishment) i came upon a rather interesting article in the new york times dated Feb 29th.
pretty cool entrance to the global seed vault huh?It seems that scientists and other concerned individuals really have put in some serious thoughts about the possibility of a post armageddon world, and they've already started stockpiling seeds from around the world at the Global Seed Vault, bored into the middle of a frozen arctic mountain topped with snow, buried 500 feet under the permafrost and the entrance tunnel to the seed vault is designed to withstand bomb blasts and earthquakes. The editor dubbed it the "Fort Knox of Food" (in case you don't know Fort Knox is where the US treasury department houses its gold). Apparently the vault’s goal is to store and protect samples of every type of seed from every seed collection in the world. And it's got a digital monitoring system to maintain stable temperature. Does that sound serious or what.
Now i'm not ususally a pessimist, but it really got me started thinking, where would i be if there really was an armageddon in my lifetime. It could result from anything: the impending fuel crisis, a global pandemic, food shortage, war, or hell a giant meteor. We have seen tell-tale signs of what those things can do. People rioting over fuel price hikes, SARS, mass starvation in third world countries, the world wars, etc.
Just a case in point: did you know that all the bananas that you eat everyday, in every corner of the world are identical genetically because they are of a single species from india. and now there are no longer any wild specimens left because of deforestation. that means its gene pool has literally dried up. Even the seed vault wouldn't have helped because if you still remembered the stuff you learnt in primary school, bananas don't produce seeds, they reproduce by grafting. which also means if some unforeseeable "disease" were to strike bananas, the whole world would literally all go bananas because there wouldn't be any bananas left! what'll happen next? I don't know.
you know what, i am kinda thirsty now, i better go grab myself a banana milkshake before they become all extinct...
See more photos of the Global Seed Vault: The Photo Slideshow
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